I really wonder how a person can love another so deeply he can't even see the truth.. I'm not talking about anyone else but me, actually I'm not the one who should see things as they are, but the one seen in a different way from how I am..
Somebody see me as a cute, gentle girl, kind to her friends, intelligent and so on, but do you know who I am? Nope..
I am a monster.
A snake.
A carnivorous plant, alluring my prey with my beautiful flowers and then eating her and suck her until there's nothing left.
Sometimes I feel bad for everyone around me, expecially for those I feel attracted by.. But usually I don't think about it and just go with the flow using them whenever I feel like..
This time it's different.
I don't wanna end up only using hom, it would't be right, he doesn't deserve this.. But then what can I do? Should I stay away from him? I can't.. I look at him in the eyes and see he's pure, even after all he went through and I tell myself "How can you dirty someone like him? It's a sin even you cannot commit.."
And then I live my days in agony, secretly watching him, talking to him whenever I can, longing for his touch, even a small caress or even a punch, I don't care as long as it's him! I think back when I was younger and I was thinking "He's exactly the kind of person who will never know about my existence.." and now I'm here, pissing him off just to have an excuse to look at him in those incredible eyes..
I'm hopeless..
It's just as this time I am the insect drawn into the trap.. But he's one of the most beautiful traps I've ever seen..